Breathing anew

It’s been a looong time since I have updated this blog. There were a lot of things that happened both good and bad for the past year. But despite all the challenges and disappointments, I came out stronger. For this year, hmmm, life has been good to me so far (and please continue to do so! *crosses fingers*) Below is the summary of the first few months of my 2018:

New job:Β  I am currently working as a senior system analyst for a company who specializes in healthcare systems.Β  It’s a very interesting job, you get to meet a lot of people (doctors, nurses, office admins, etc.) So far, the stressful thing that I’ve encountered was presenting one of our applications to the different stakeholders of Ministry of Health (MOH). I remember stuttering and having very sweaty palms at that time! I’m really not used with talking in front of a large group of people especially if they are holding important positions, I get intimidated and nervous. 😦 But looking at the brighter side I get to hone my presentation and communication skills.

Stronger relationships:Β As much as I can, I message/call my parents and siblings to check on them and to be updated on the latest happenings in their lives (also to be get new pictures of my beloved Ashe cat haha! :3) I’ve made new friends in my present company while keeping in touch with my colleagues from my previous company. As for my friends in the Philippines I try to set a time to have a video call session or just chat with them. Last but not the least, my boyfriend and I just celebrated our 3rd anniversary last week! When I was still young, innocent, and beautifulΒ :)) I thought that being in a romantic relationship required a lot of effort. But being with the right person makes things easy. πŸ™‚ Yes, romance still requires effort but if the person understands you and is willing to compromise then it shouldn’t be that hard (unlike what they usually portray in the movies -_-).

Better self-awareness: I turned 27 last March, and as I became a year older I learned to be good to my self, to appreciate my strengths and to improve on my weaknesses. Before you can love others, you must love yourself first right? πŸ˜€Β Β I’ve come to the point that I am not bothered of what other people will think of me.Β I cannot directly control them or force them into liking me or agreeing with me. I only have control over one person and that is myself.Β Hey, we are not born into this world just to impress other people albeit total strangers. I know that each one of us is here for a greater purpose (though I’m still searching for mine). ^^ As long as I am not doing anything wrong or hurting anyone, I will choose whatever makes me happy. Because at the end of the day, I am my longest commitment. Besides, those who matter will understand and will stay with me. This is my mantra! πŸ™‚

I know that this year will bring more challenges, but as long I grow and learn I’ll welcome them with open arms.

P.S.

I’ll try my best to write a post every month. ^^

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Move Along – The All-American Rejects

Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall, everyone stands
Another day, and you’ve had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold

Speak to me
When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
Move along

So a day when you’ve lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold

Speak to me
When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)

When everything is wrong, we move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong, we move along
Along, along, along, along

When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do (Know you do)
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through

(Move along)
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
Right back what is wrong
We move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
Right back what is wrong
We move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
Right back what is wrong
We move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
Right back what is wrong
We move along

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Whatever happens just move along. πŸ™‚

XO – John Mayer Version

 

Your love is bright as ever
Even in the shadows
Baby kiss me
Before they turn the lights out
Your heart is glowing
And I’m crashing into you
Baby kiss me, kiss me
Before they turn the lights out
Before they turn the lights out
Baby love me lights out

In the darkest night hour
I’ll search through the crowd
Your face is all that I see
I’ll give you everything
Baby, love me lights out
Baby, love me lights out

We don’t have forever
Baby daylight’s wasting
You better kiss me
Before our time is run out
Nobody sees what we see
They’re just hopelessly gazing
Baby take me, take me
Before they turn the lights out
Before time is run out
Baby love me lights out

In the darkest night hour
I’ll search through the crowd
Your face is all that I see
I’ll give you everything
Baby, love me lights out
Baby, love me lights out
You can turn my lights out

I love you like XO
You love me like XO
You kill me girl XO
You love me like XO
Is all that I see
I’ll give you everything
Baby love me lights out
Baby love me lights out
You can turn my lights out

In the darkest night hour
I’ll search through the crowd
Your face is all that I see
I’ll give you everything
Baby, love me lights out
Baby, love me lights out
You can turn my lights out

πŸ™‚

 

Walking On A Dream – Empire of the Sun

Walking on a dream
How can I explain
Talking to myself
Will I see again

We are always running for the thrill of it thrill of it
Always pushing up the hill searching for the thrill of it
On and on and on we are calling out and out again
Never looking down I’m just in awe of what’s in front of me

Is it real now
When two people become one
I can feel it
When two people become one

Thought I’d never see
The love you found in me
Now it’s changing all the time
Living in a rhythm where the minutes working overtime

We are always running for the thrill of it thrill of it
Always pushing up the hill searching for the thrill of it
On and on and on we are calling out and out again
Never looking down I’m just in awe of what’s in front of me

Is it real now
When two people become one
I can feel it
When two people become one

Is it real now
When two people become one
I can feel it
When two people become one

Catch me I’m falling down
Catch me I’m falling down

Don’t stop just keep going on
I’m your shoulder lean upon
So come on deliver from inside
All we got is tonight that is right ’till first light

Is it real now
When two people become one
I can feel it
When two people become one

Is it real now
When two people become one
I can feel it
When two people become one

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Current LSS πŸ™‚

04-16

On my joining day
A guy in a black polo
Never left my mind

His smile makes my day
Whenever we’re together
I can’t help but fall

Little did I know
He will be holding my hand
For the years to come

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First attempt in writing a haiku! The 5-7-5 syllabication is kinda challenging. I don’t know if “we’re” can be considered as one syllable. But nonetheless I feel proud of my work haha! πŸ˜…

Enjoy!!! C:

Goals and success.

True! 

To be honest I was a bit lost since the start of last year, I don’t have big goals career wise. I was like, “just go with the flow.” I know it’s not fully me to settle for that kind of mindset. πŸ˜… Like what a saying goes, “only dead fish goes with the flow.” 

Sooo 2016, game face on. πŸ˜πŸ‘ŠπŸ»

Falling Slowly – Glen Hansard and Marketa Irglova

I don’t know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can’t react
And games that never amount
To more than they’re meant
Will play themselves out

[Chorus]
Take this sinking boat and point it home
We’ve still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You’ll make it now

Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can’t go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I’m painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It’s time that you won

[Chorus]
Take this sinking boat and point it home
We’ve still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You’ll make it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I’ll sing along

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This song is so beautiful… It reminds me of the time when feelings start to blossom once again. A time for new beginnings. πŸ™‚ I can listen to this song over and over until I fall asleep, the melody is so dreamy. ☺️

Kris Allen’s version in American Idol was also nice. 😁